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        Thanks to the data lost accident happen to me, I get a second opportunity to think over the past 2005. Actually, the original one was kind of simple. I write it as an assignment that I had to do instead of willing to do. At such a quiet night, unable to connect to the internet(my careless and lazy mum forget to pay the fees), it is a perfect time for me to look back at year 2005 and sort things out.

         2005, this year means so much to me. Leaving my university and heading to another country~~A lot happened to me, smiled, laughed,frowned, weeped,cried….it’s my year, my life. 

Part 1  farewell, my NJUST……

        Someone said the last semester of the university is filled with blue and gloomy atmosphere. But for me, it’s a busy time, working, playing, enjoying life. First I worked in the nanjing electronic commce research center with some of my classmates. We were asked to set up a site for a online teaching system. Programming is always a headache for me and I am such an idiot in front of the computer. However, xiaojili is a good partner, with her company, I learned a lot ,try to be patient and cautious to every procedure we write, and became a bit more familiar with ASP and SQL-server. Finally, we achieved, though there are still so many bugs and it may looks so bad in the professional’s eyes. It’s our work anyway, we are doing it by heart and learned a lot. It is worth the compliments.(but to tell you the truths, I still sick of programming, maybe I don’t have the talent, I hate it!!!!)

        After the internship, I began to work on my dissertation. It is very lucky for me to choose cen as my tutor. What he had done had really impressed me a lot. Before knowing him, I always see those teachers in university as far far away people that only giving lectures, busying doing their research but never careing about their students by heart. However, cen changed my mind. He was so responsible, hard-working and thoughtful. Everytime I received my original draft from him, looking at every minor mistake he helped to modify from the format to the wrongly written words, I was so much moved.  As you said we are the first students you teach, you are the first teachter make us so respect and gratitude. We will miss you and support you forever.

        Finally the last month came, all the class didn’t get so close before. Beers, sad songs,hugs, laughs ,tears……I still remember those hot humid and noisy summer night, all the class drinking tons of beers, eating BBQ outside Gate 1 into deep night and the other night, all sitting in the circle on the playground, making selfintroduction one by one like we were first met 4 years ago, playing guitar and singing….i also can’t forget that deep night those naughty boys shouting ”I love you” downstairs, and the last dinner, how we got drank, wept and left….. it is a real departure, when will we all get together next time? Who can answer me? Goodbye, my friends! Goodbye, my university!

(one night in nanjing)

   Part 2  Hello, sydney !

        It is always my dream to lead a different life in a place far away, to get to know different people, make new friends and experience more, learn more. dream finally come true and I landed on sydney at the end of July. Excited,curious can describe the feeling of the first a few days. I thought I will stand on my own feet and enjoy  life from then on but I’m so naïve. Lonlyness, homesickness, kept attacking me and I am so upset about my study after several classes, there’re so many experienced classmates around and my English is so poor. I don’t know what to do, where to find help. I felt like being left alone on the earth, walking alone in a dark forest. I lost myself. I want my mum, my old friends,my home. Still feel so fearful when I’m looking back. I telephoned home everyday, lived on my mother’s console and encouragement suffering misery everyday. Depression, depression and still depression. I looked for help everywhere, going to the doctor’s, talking to the teacher in the international student office…..they gave me many suggestions. So I began to follow their advise, joined in ADG(met a lot of freinds),took some tutorial classes(improved the study skills)…..and at the same time I began to get familiar with friends around, things got better and better, finally I find myself. I was happy to tears.

        The days after is fine. Getting used to the study and the life in sydney , I was seizing every opportunity to be happy, looking for more friends, studying harder,and playing harder. I like to lead my life this way, being  optimistic and strong in heart. Always keep smiling no matter what happened. I believe I am doing better and better….

(the second day i arrived)

Conclusion:

       Looking at those 365 days in 2005 that I went though. I was so thanksful. Though everyone said I didn’t changed a bit, still kind of childish and innocent, I can feel my growing pain and joy. It’s my life.